Xanga update time, i suppose.

life has been ok. been off my meds since...well... a while ago. been driniking a lil more than i was....i think its compensation. but i've been happy, working 8+ hour days at Bertrands and coming home exhaused but feeling useful.

and now, onto the main reason for my entry:

Alexander Skarsgard aka Eric Northman on HBO's True Blood.

I know nobody reads this except Christine, and that is A-OK with me. I just really need to speak my mind on this.

HOLY SHIT, THIS MAN IS HOT.

allow me to demonstrate:


This is a picture of Alexander Skarsgard, on some photo shoot. he makes the beard look good.


ASkars on the set, BEING Eric Northman. Notice the intense eyes and the set of the jaw. *swoon*


Eric Northman, the Vampire--fangs out.


The Cover of Rolling Stone. Yeah--my celeb is a HOTTIE.


SEXY VAMP ERIC with beard. Hate beards, but SHIT. He makes it look good.





Annnnnnnnd, the obligatory shower photo. TELL ME HE ISNT HOT. DO IT. BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE A LIE.

*cough* end of rant/post

LOVE ASkars!!

And see now, I am just too emotional to even function. Nana and Sito would be SO UPSET to know that I am this distraught. And Nana has been gone since...shit...I dont even know anymore. She was still there when I was there, and then she died...and I wasnt there anymore...so...2008? 2009? But she would be SO PISSED OFF to see me being this way. And Sito would be so mad too. But right now I just cant stop thinking about them.

I could just be being emo. We never really said goodbye to Sito. Should I make a non-official funeral for Dustin? If I'm this upset, is he too? I dont fucking know...

Ashley is trying to get me to start journaling. We had a counseling session for one of her classes, and we deduced that I need to journal more. That was 2 weeks ago. I decided I wanted to start journaling when I felt there was something to write about. Well...today I have something.

4th of July this year was spent at the beach for SD4. We got there at 4:30am, and it was kind of cool. My first (and prob last) early SD4.

We needed someone to watch Shotzi, so we dropped her off at Dustin's mom's house. She loves Shotzi and Shozti has fun there, so it's a no brainer. Last time I was less than enthused...she came back with cat tails stuck all in her fur, and she was acting weird for a day or 2. We brushed it off as a fluke. Then THIS happened.

We got Shotzi back on the 5th. I went over at about 11:30am to pick her up. She seemed happy enough to see me, doing her whiny bark and wagging her tail. We had some pleasantries, and then I left. Got home, and everything seemed ok. Then, disaster struck.

Nate and I were in the living room just hanging out. At about 2pm, Nate said something filled with expletives, and I was like, wth is going on???? Turns out, Shotzi was standing on the arm of the couch, next to Nate, and had sudden (and apparently uncontrollable) diarrhea. All down the the side of the couch, and on to the floor. Shoved the dog outside, cleaned up the poop (almost vomited in the process) and went to check on the pup. While she was outside, it happened a few more times. It was, literally, like a fountain. All liquid, all over. Hmm.

Called Dustin EXTREMELY peeved, and said to find out what the eff they fed her. Turns out not only did she apparently get into the trash and eat half of a peanut butter sandwich, but they were giving her ribs and other people food. Color me upset.

So all day yesterday, last night, and today she has been this way. She's vomited twice in the last 2 days as well, and this morning she wouldnt eat and her "liqui-poo" looked a bloddy. Schisse. So, I call up Felicia and we go to the vet. (I thought it was the EV, but it was just a pet hospital. I'm ok with that, they were super nice.)

They take some blood and say they will run some tests, but they are confused because she seems fine. Sniffing around, excitable, tail wagging. The vet is like, she doesn't look as bad as her papers say....and then she shoots diarrhea all over the floor. Thanks pup for backing me up on this whole not feeling good thing.

He takes a sample and gives her an anti-nausea shot, and gives us some meds to give her. We should get the results back tomorrow. He doesnt think it's a blockage, because she isnt vomiting nearly as much as she should if there was a blockage.

In any case, we leave the vet (after paying $427) and come home. Stopped at Petco and got her some doggy diapers in case there are more accidents. She did it 3 times at the vet, once outside the vet, and once at Petco...so it seemed like a good idea.

Needless to say, I don't think we will be taking the dog to his mom's house anymore. Why the eff they decided that giving her people food, let alone RIBS, would be a good idea is beyond me. So upset.

She seems a little bit better now. We've been home since just before 2pm, and she hasnt had an accident and has had some water. More in the last 3 hours than she has in the last 2 days. Gave her the meds I was supposed to, and they gave us some wet food to give her that is good for gastro-intestinal issues. I hope nothing is wrong.

Tonight looks like a wine night to me. I mean, come on. $427 for dog food and a Rx for pepto? Oy.

Only good news of the day--I got my new check, debit card, Chase CC, and VS card in the mail...all with my new last name. :)